Chapter 7

The first supervised visit was two weeks later.
I was a nervous wreck the whole morning. I dressed Louisa in her favorite overalls, packed her a snack, and practiced what I’d say if she got scared.
The family center was a bright, sunny room with toys and books and a big glass window where parents could watch from outside. The supervisor, a nice woman named Linda, would be in the room the whole time.
Elmer was already there when we walked in.
He was sitting on the floor, his hands folded in his lap, looking like he hadn’t slept in days. He’d cut his hair, he was wearing clean jeans and a plain t-shirt, and he had a plastic bag in his hand that I recognized immediately.
The chocolate teddy bears.
Louisa froze in the doorway when she saw him.
She grabbed my leg and hid behind it, her eyes wide.
“Hi, baby,” Elmer said, his voice soft. He didn’t stand up, didn’t move toward her. He stayed right where he was on the floor. “I brought you something. Remember these? The ones you love?”
He pulled one of the teddy bears out of the bag and held it up.
Louisa stared at it for a long time.
Then she slowly let go of my leg and took one small step forward.
Then another.
She walked all the way over to him, stopped a foot away, and held out her little hand.
Elmer placed the teddy bear in her palm.
Louisa looked at it, then looked up at him.
“Daddy?” she whispered.
Elmer’s face crumpled. He nodded, not trusting himself to speak.
Louisa climbed into his lap, wrapped her little arms around his neck, and buried her face in his shoulder.
“I missed you,” she said.
Elmer held her so tight I thought he might never let go. He cried into her hair, his shoulders shaking.
“I missed you too, baby,” he said. “I missed you so much. I’m so sorry. Daddy is so, so sorry.”
I watched them through the glass for the whole hour.
Elmer didn’t check his phone once. He sat on the floor and played blocks with her. He read her three of her favorite books. He helped her color a picture of a rainbow. When she told him her head itched where her hair was growing back, he ran his fingers over it very gently, just like I did, and told her it would be long and curly again soon.
When the hour was up, Louisa didn’t want to leave.
“Five more minutes, Daddy?” she begged.
Elmer looked at Linda, who nodded.
“Five more minutes,” he said, smiling through his tears.
When we walked out to the car, Louisa chattered the whole way home about how Daddy had built her a tower out of blocks, how he’d given her two chocolate teddy bears, how he’d promised to bring her crayons next time.
That night, she fell asleep holding both teddy bears and the picture she’d colored.
The visits continued every week.
Elmer never missed one.
He showed up early every time, with a new small present—crayons, a puzzle, a new dress for Bun-Bun. He never mentioned his parents. He never pressured me to talk about the divorce. He just sat on that floor and played with his daughter for an hour every week.
He started sending me receipts every week for his parenting classes and his therapy appointments. He didn’t have to. I think he just wanted me to know he was keeping his word.
Three months after the first visit, the judge made the restraining orders against Lydia, Walter, and Heather permanent. They could never contact us, never come near us, never even mention our names on social media again.
Heather pled guilty to the theft and false reporting charges. She got two years probation, a thousand hours of community service, and a permanent criminal record. Lydia pled no contest to the child abuse charge. She got five years probation, was ordered to pay fifteen thousand dollars in restitution to Louisa for emotional distress, and had to register as a child abuser in the state. Walter pled guilty to the assault charge. He got six months probation and a fine.
Justice, Carla told me, wasn’t pretty. But it was done.
The divorce was finalized a week later.
The judge granted me full legal and physical custody of Louisa. Elmer got supervised weekly visits, which would become unsupervised after six months if he stayed clean, kept going to therapy, and didn’t have any contact with his family.
I walked out of the courthouse that day with the sun on my face.
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For the first time in four years, I was not someone’s wife. I was not someone’s daughter-in-law. I was just Joanna. And Louisa was just Louisa.
And we were free.