Chapter 5

The next two weeks were a blur of court dates and lawyer meetings.
Carla filed the criminal charges against Heather and Lydia: theft, false reporting, child abuse, and assault for Walter’s slap. The divorce was moving forward, but Elmer was fighting it every step of the way.
He’d hired a fancy lawyer from the city, and they were claiming I was an unfit mother.
Their argument was simple: I’d fabricated the video. I’d manipulated Louisa into saying Lydia hurt her. I’d lured Elmer to the motel to get him arrested. I was a bitter, vengeful woman who was using her own daughter to punish a family that had taken me in when I had nothing.
The judge ordered a full custody evaluation.
A court-appointed psychologist named Dr. Torres would interview me, Elmer, Louisa, and both sides of the family, then write a report recommending who should get custody.
I was terrified.
What if Dr. Torres believed them? What if she thought I was lying? What if they took Louisa away from me and sent her back to that house?
The day of Louisa’s interview, I dressed her in her favorite pink dress, put a soft white hat on her head to cover her growing buzz cut, and sat with her in the waiting room of Dr. Torres’ office for twenty minutes, my leg bouncing so hard the chair shook.
“Mommy?” Louisa said, tugging on my sleeve. “Why are we here?”
I knelt down so I was eye level with her.
“This nice lady is just going to ask you a few questions, okay?” I said. “About your feelings. About Grandma and Grandpa and Aunt Heather. You just tell her the truth, baby. Whatever you remember. It’s okay.”
Louisa nodded, but her little hand was squeezing mine so tight her knuckles were white.
Dr. Torres came out to get her. She was in her forties, with warm brown eyes and a smile that reached her eyes. She knelt down too.
“Hi, Louisa,” she said. “I’m Dr. Torres. I have a dollhouse in my office with a whole family of tiny dolls. Would you like to come play with me for a little while?”
Louisa looked up at me. I nodded.
She let go of my hand and took Dr. Torres’ outstretched one.
The door closed behind them.
I sat in that waiting room for forty-five minutes that felt like an eternity. I replayed every bad mothering moment I’d ever had—every time I’d snapped at her when I was tired, every time I’d left her with Lydia to go to work, every time I’d chosen to stay in that house instead of leaving sooner.
What if this was all my fault?
What if I’d left earlier, none of this would have happened?
The door opened.
Louisa ran out and threw herself into my arms.
Dr. Torres walked out behind her, her face unreadable.
“Can I speak to you for a moment, Ms. Hale?” she said.
I sat Louisa down with a coloring book and followed Dr. Torres into her office.
She sat down behind her desk and folded her hands.
“First,” she said, “I want you to know I don’t do this job to take children away from good parents. I do it to keep them safe.”
I nodded, my throat too tight to speak.
“I talked to Louisa for forty minutes,” she said. “We played with the dollhouse. I asked her to show me the mommy doll, the daddy doll, the grandma doll. She picked up the grandma doll and put it in the closet. She said, ‘Grandma is mean. She cuts hair.’”
My eyes burned.
“She showed me the daddy doll,” Dr. Torres continued. “She put him in the corner. She said, ‘Daddy didn’t help when Grandpa hit Mommy.’ Then she picked up the mommy doll and the baby doll and held them tight. She said, ‘Mommy keeps me safe. Only Mommy.’”
She slid a piece of paper across the desk to me.
“I’ve interviewed hundreds of children in these situations,” she said. “I can tell when a child has been coached to say things. Louisa wasn’t coached. Every word she said was raw, unplanned, and true. She has acute stress disorder. She has nightmares. She’s terrified of older women with short hair because they remind her of Lydia. She flinches when anyone raises their hand near her face.”
She looked me in the eye.
“My recommendation is full legal and physical custody to you, Ms. Hale. No unsupervised contact with Elmer for a minimum of six months, and only then if he completes a full course of parenting classes and domestic violence awareness training. No contact whatsoever with Lydia, Walter, or Heather until Louisa is eighteen, if ever. That child has been through enough. She needs stability. She needs you.”
I broke down crying right there in her office.
For the first time since this whole nightmare started, I knew we were going to be okay.
Carla called me that night.
“Dr. Torres sent over her report,” she said. “It’s a nuclear bomb for Elmer’s case. The judge will almost certainly go with her recommendation. But we’re not done yet. There’s one more thing we have to do.”
“What?” I said.
“Lydia’s been talking to people,” Carla said. “She’s been telling everyone at her church, at the grocery store, at Elmer’s work that you’re a child abuser who framed her family. We need to make sure the truth gets out there before she can do any more damage.”
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I took a deep breath.
“Okay,” I said. “Let’s do it.”