Chapter 8

The next six months were the happiest of my life.
We didn’t get the house back.
The insurance money was enough to pay off most of the debts Ryan had left me with, but not enough to buy a new place.
So Mia and I decided to become roommates.
We bought a small, cute house in a quiet suburb, twenty minutes outside Dallas.
It had a big backyard for Noah and the puppy.
It had a white picket fence.
It had a “Home Sweet Home” mat on the front porch.
And for the first time in my life, it actually felt like home.
I got a promotion at work.
A big one.
I was making more money than I ever had before.
Enough to support Noah and me comfortably.
Enough to put away for his college fund.
Enough to never need a man to take care of me again.
Noah was thriving.
The nightmares stopped.
He was doing great in school.
He’d made a dozen new friends.
He’d started playing soccer.
He rarely mentioned Ryan anymore.
And when he did, it was with a strange, distant curiosity, not love or longing.
“Mommy,” he asked me one night at dinner.
“Is Daddy ever coming home?”
I put down my fork.
I’d been waiting for this question.
I wanted to be honest with him.
But I didn’t want to scare him.
“No, baby,” I said gently.
“Daddy made some very bad choices. And he has to stay away for a very long time. He can’t hurt us anymore. It’s just you, me, and Mia now. And the dogs and cats. And that’s all we need, right?”
Noah thought about it for a second.
Then he grinned.
“Right! Because Mia lets me eat cookies for breakfast sometimes!”
Mia, who was sitting across the table, winked at him.
“Only on secret cookie days. Don’t tell your mom.”
I laughed.
And I knew.
Noah was okay.
We were all okay.
Jenna had her baby in March.
A beautiful little boy she named Liam.
We’d kept in touch.
Not close.
But we texted every few weeks.
She sent me photos of Liam.
I sent her photos of Noah playing soccer.
She’d moved back in with her parents.
She was going to community college, studying nursing.
She was doing better.
We both were.
And then, in April, everything changed again.
I got a letter from the Texas Department of Corrections.
It was marked “URGENT.”
I opened it with shaking hands.
And I read the words that made my blood run cold.
Ryan Carter had been granted an appeal.
And the appellate court had ordered a new trial.
The grounds?
Improper search and seizure of the burner phone.
Mia and I had found it in Ryan’s desk without a warrant.
His new lawyer had argued that made it inadmissible.
And the judge had agreed.
Without the burner phone, the prosecution’s case was much weaker.
Without the text messages, they couldn’t prove the conspiracy.
They couldn’t prove the motive.
They couldn’t prove Ryan had set the fire.
All they had left was the original recording.
Which was still admissible.
And the testimony.
But it wasn’t enough.
Not for forty years.
The new trial was set for three months later.
And Ryan was asking for bail.
Again.
I called Lisa immediately.
She was furious.
“I can’t believe they granted this!” she shouted.
“That phone was in plain sight! It wasn’t even hidden! That judge is an idiot! But don’t worry, Sarah. We’ll fight this. We still have the recording. We still have Jenna’s testimony. We still have Diane’s confession on the stand. We still have the forensic evidence from the fire. We can still win this. But it’s going to be another fight. Another long, hard fight.”
I sank onto the couch.
I stared at the letter in my hand.
I’d thought it was over.
I’d thought we were safe.
But Ryan was like a bad penny.
He kept coming back.
And this time, he was fighting for his freedom.
If he got out…
I didn’t even want to think about what he’d do.
That night, I sat Noah down.
I told him what was happening.
As gently as I could.
He listened quietly.
Then he looked up at me.
His eyes were serious.
Wise beyond his years.
“Mommy,” he said.
“Daddy is not going to hurt us again. Right?”
I kissed his forehead.
“Never, baby. I promise. As long as I’m alive, no one is ever going to hurt you again.”
But this time, I knew I might have to make good on that promise.
Literally.
The next three months were a nightmare all over again.
The media circus started again.
Diane was released from prison on bail pending her new trial.
She immediately went back to Facebook.
Posting more lies.
More hate.
More threats.
Ryan’s new lawyer was even slicker than the first one.
A famous defense attorney from Houston who’d gotten multiple murderers acquitted.
He was good.
Scary good.
And he had a new strategy.
He wasn’t going to deny the recording anymore.
He was going to twist it.
He was going to argue that Ryan had been “forced” to do what he did.
That I’d been emotionally abusing him for years.
That I’d threatened to kill myself and take Noah with me if he ever left.
That he’d only made the recording to “document” my behavior to protect his son.
That Diane had only “restrained” Noah to keep him from hurting himself during one of my “episodes.”
It was all lies.
Obvious, ridiculous lies.
But the right lies, told by the right lawyer, to the right jury, could be enough.
And then, two weeks before the trial was supposed to start, the worst possible thing happened.
Jenna called me.
She was crying so hard I could barely understand her.
“Sarah,” she sobbed.
“They got to me. Ryan’s lawyer. And his brother. They came to my parents’ house last night. They threatened me. They said if I testified against Ryan, they’d take Liam away from me. They said they’d tell the court I’m an unfit mother. They said they’d make sure I never see my baby again. I’m so scared. I can’t lose my son. I can’t. I’m sorry, Sarah. I’m so sorry. But I can’t testify. I can’t.”
She hung up.
I stood there, holding the phone.
And I knew.
Without Jenna’s testimony.
Without the burner phone.
Ryan might actually win.
He might get out.
And he’d come for us.
I looked out the window.
The sun was setting.
The sky was red.
Like fire.
I went to the safe in my closet.
I opened it.
And I took out the gun I’d bought three months before.
A small, silver 9mm.
I’d never told anyone I had it.
Not even Mia.
I’d taken lessons.
I knew how to use it.
I’d hoped I’d never need it.
But now…
I checked the magazine.
Full.
I put it back in the safe.
But I left the combination unlocked.
Just in case.
Ryan wanted a war.
Fine.
May you like
I’d give him a war.
And this time, only one of us was walking away.