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Chapter 10

A month later.

The summer sun was warm on my face as I stood in Dad’s backyard, flipping burgers on the grill. Jake was running around the yard with Lila, chasing a butterfly, both of them laughing so loud the neighbors probably heard them. Dad was sitting at the picnic table, drinking beer, talking to Detective Carter and Mia. Lila was staying with us for the weekend—Tyler was in a minimum-security prison, working on his deal, and we’d gotten permission to have her visit every Saturday. It was good for both kids. Good for all of us.

A lot had happened in the past month.

Michael had pled guilty to everything—domestic assault, kidnapping, passport fraud, car theft, armed robbery. No trial. No drama. He was sentenced to forty-five years in federal prison. No chance of parole. He’d be in his seventies when he got out, if he lived that long. He’d sent me one letter from prison, a week after the sentencing. I hadn’t opened it. I didn’t need to. Whatever he had to say didn’t matter anymore. He was gone. Out of our lives. Forever.

Tyler had testified against the rest of the ring. All twelve guys had been arrested, charged, convicted. In exchange, he’d gotten three years in prison, with time off for good behavior. He’d be out in two years, if he stayed clean. He’d called me last week, from the prison phone. He was working in the library, getting his GED, taking parenting classes. He said when he got out, he was gonna get a real job, a small house, be the father Lila deserved. I believed him.

The final custody hearing had been two weeks ago.

The judge had seen the video, heard Jake’s testimony, seen Michael’s criminal record, heard about the kidnapping, the fake passports, everything. She’d awarded me full, sole legal and physical custody of Jake. No visitation for Michael. Ever. No contact. No letters. No nothing. The judge had called Michael “the worst kind of predator” and said Jake deserved to grow up safe, happy, and far away from his father. I’d cried when she banged her gavel. For the first time in seven years, I didn’t have to look over my shoulder. I didn’t have to be scared.

Jake was doing great.

He’d gone back to school. Made new friends. Joined the soccer team. He still had nightmares sometimes, still flinched if someone raised their voice too fast, but he was healing. Every day was a little better. Every day he laughed a little louder, smiled a little wider, held my hand a little less tight. He loved having Lila around. He called her his “little sister” and promised he’d always protect her. It was the kind of future I’d always wanted for him. The kind I’d almost lost.

“Burgers are done!” I yelled.

Everyone came over to the picnic table. Jake and Lila sat next to each other, fighting over who got the bigger bun. Dad poured lemonade for the kids, beer for the adults. Carter told a story about a stupid criminal he’d arrested the week before, and everyone laughed. Mia held Lila’s hand while she ate, wiping ketchup off her chin. She and Carter had started dating, actually. No one was surprised. They were both good people. They deserved each other.

After we ate, Jake and Lila went back to playing. Dad and Carter went inside to watch the game. Mia helped me clean up the plates, throwing away the trash, wiping off the table.

“You okay?” she asked, piling the dirty plates in her arms.

I looked over at Jake, who was now teaching Lila how to do a cartwheel on the grass. He was laughing, his face bright, no fear in his eyes.

“Yeah,” I said, smiling. “I’m okay. More than okay. I’m happy.”

Mia smiled back. “You deserve it. All of it. After everything you went through.”

She went inside with the plates.

I sat down on the porch step, watching the kids play. The sun was starting to go down, painting the sky pink and orange. It was the same sunset I’d seen a hundred times before, but this time it was different. This time, I wasn’t watching it through a window, scared to go outside. This time, I was free.

A small envelope was sitting on the porch step next to me. The postmark was from the federal prison in Indiana. Michael’s letter. It had come that morning. I’d left it there, not wanting to ruin the day. But now, with everyone inside, with the kids playing, I felt ready.

I picked it up.

Tore it open.

The letter was short. Written in Michael’s messy handwriting.

Emma,

I know you hate me. I know you’ll never forgive me. I don’t expect you to. I’ve been sitting in here, alone, for a month. Thinking. About everything. About what I did to you. To Jake. To all of us.

I was sick. I know that now. Angry, scared, broken. I took it all out on you. The only person who ever loved me. The only person who ever gave me a chance. I ruined it. All of it. And I’ll spend the rest of my life regretting it.

Tell Jake I’m sorry. Tell him I love him. Tell him I’m sorry I was never the father he deserved. Tell him to be better than me. To be kind. To be gentle. To never, ever hurt the people he loves.

Don’t write back. Don’t try to visit. I don’t want you to see me like this. I want you to forget I ever existed. Go be happy. Be free. You earned it.

Michael

I folded the letter back up.

I didn’t cry. I didn’t feel angry. I didn’t feel sad. I just felt… nothing. He was a stranger now. A part of my past that was over. Done.

I stood up, walked over to the grill, and threw the letter into the hot coals. It caught fire, curling up into ash, blowing away in the wind. Gone. Just like him.

Jake ran over to me, Lila right behind him.

“Mom!” he said, grabbing my hand. “Come play with us! We’re pirates! We need a captain!”

I laughed, letting him pull me toward the grass.

“Okay,” I said. “I’ll be captain. But only if I get the biggest sword.”

Jake cheered, running to get the plastic swords from the toy box. Lila followed, yelling about treasure maps and gold coins.

I looked up at the sky. The last of the sun was disappearing behind the trees. The first stars were coming out. Somewhere, a bird sang.

For so long, I’d thought my life was over. That I’d spend the rest of my days scared, alone, trapped. But I was wrong. I’d had to fight. I’d had to be brave. I’d had to lose almost everything to realize what really mattered.

My son. My family. My freedom.

And now?

Now I had it all.

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I ran after the kids, laughing, ready for whatever came next.

The end.

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