Chapter 9

The wedding was perfect.
We got married on a warm Saturday in July, in the garden at the estate.
The roses were in full bloom—red and pink and white, climbing up the old stone walls. The aisle was lined with baby’s breath and daisies, Lily’s favorite flowers.
Lily was my flower girl.
She wore a tiny white dress with lace sleeves, and a flower crown made of daisies. She carried a small basket of petals, and she scattered them perfectly as she walked down the aisle, her little chin held high, beaming at everyone watching.
Marcus walked me down the aisle.
He’d given me away at my first wedding, too.
Back then, he’d been nervous, worried I was making a mistake.
This time, he was smiling.
“Told you you’d find better,” he whispered, as we walked.
I laughed, tears in my eyes.
Ethan was waiting for me at the altar.
He wore a simple navy suit, no tie, his sleeves rolled up to his elbows. When he saw me, his face lit up like I was the only person in the whole world.
My parents were sitting in the front row, holding hands, crying. Maria was there, too, sitting beside them, dabbing her eyes with a handkerchief. All our closest friends were there, the kids from Lily’s soccer team, the nurses from Ethan’s hospital, the team from my company.
The ceremony was short.
We wrote our own vows.
Ethan promised to love me, to support me, to always put Lily and me first. He promised to be the father Lily deserved, to cheer for her at every soccer game, to build every Lego castle she asked for, to hold her when she had nightmares.
I promised to love him, to stand by him, to build a life with him that was full of laughter and kindness and joy.
When the priest said, “You may kiss the bride,” Ethan pulled me close and kissed me like he’d been waiting his whole life to do it.
The crowd cheered.
Lily ran up to us, yelling, “Daddy! Mommy!”
Ethan picked her up, and we kissed her chubby cheeks, one on each side.
The reception was in the big white tent on the lawn.
We ate barbecue and potato salad and cake. We danced to old country songs and pop songs from the 2000s. Lily danced with Ethan for the father-daughter dance, standing on his shoes while he spun her around the dance floor, laughing so hard she could barely breathe.
Marcus gave the best man speech.
He made fun of me for burning toast every time I tried to make breakfast. He made fun of Ethan for crying during Up the first time they’d watched it together. He told the story of the wedding, of how I’d walked in with Lily and an envelope and changed everything. Then he got serious.
“I’ve spent my whole life protecting Clara,” he said. “And for a long time, I thought I’d have to do it forever. But then Ethan came along. And I realized I don’t have to anymore. Because he loves her the way she deserves to be loved. And he loves Lily like she’s his own. I’ve never been happier for anyone in my life. To Clara, Ethan, and Lily—the best family I know.”
Everyone raised their glasses.
That night, after all the guests had left, after Lily was fast asleep in her bed, Ethan and I sat on the back porch, drinking champagne, watching the fireflies blink in the garden.
He pulled me close, resting his chin on the top of my head.
“Mrs. Hayes,” he said.
I smiled.
“Mrs. Hayes,” I repeated.
It sounded right.
Perfect.
The next few months flew by.
We settled into married life easily.
Ethan worked four days a week at the hospital, and spent the other three with us. I ran the company, but I made sure I was home for dinner every single night. We took Lily to Disney World for her fourth birthday. She met Cinderella and rode the teacups until she was dizzy, and she told everyone we met that her daddy was a doctor who fixed sick kids.
We found out I was pregnant in November.
I was shocked.
After everything with the fertility treatments, after Julian’s vasectomy, after the doctors had told me Lily was the last possible baby I could ever have… I never thought I’d be pregnant again.
We told Lily on Thanksgiving.
We gave her a small box with a tiny ultrasound picture inside.
She opened it, frowned at the picture for a second, then looked up at us, her eyes wide.
“Baby?” she said.
“Yes, baby,” Ethan said, smiling. “You’re going to be a big sister.”
Lily screamed.
She ran around the dining room table, yelling, “I’m a big sister! I’m a big sister!” She threw her arms around my neck, then Ethan’s, then my mother’s, then Marcus’s. She told the dogs, the cats, and the turkey on the table.
It was perfect.
Victoria died in December.
She called me a week before she went into hospice.
She didn’t ask for anything.
She just wanted to know how Lily was.
I told her about the soccer games, about the Lego castles, about how Lily was reading at a second-grade level already, about how she was going to be a big sister.
Victoria cried.
“Thank you,” she said. “For giving her the life I never could. For loving her the way she deserved. I’m so sorry, Clara. For everything.”
Then she hung up.
She died peacefully in her sleep three days later.
I didn’t go to the funeral.
I didn’t think it was my place.
But I did take Lily to the cemetery a week later, on a cold, sunny afternoon. We put a single white rose on Victoria’s grave. I didn’t tell Lily who was buried there. I just told her it was someone who’d loved her very much, even if she’d been too silly to show it.
Lily put the rose down carefully, then crossed her little arms and said, “I hope she’s happy now.”
I picked her up and held her tight.
“Me too, baby,” I said. “Me too.”
Our son was born in June, on Lily’s fifth birthday.
We named him William Marcus Hayes.
Will for short.
He had Ethan’s brown eyes and my curly hair, and he was the most perfect thing I’d ever seen. Lily adored him. She held him every chance she got, she sang to him when he cried, she insisted on helping with every diaper change, even when she made a mess.
Ethan cried when he held Will for the first time.
He looked at me, his eyes wet, and said, “How did I get so lucky?”
I kissed him.
“I’m the lucky one,” I said.
Life was perfect.
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But I knew, deep down, that there was still one last loose end to tie up.
One last thing I needed to do, to finally close the door on the past forever.