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Chapter 8

Ethan was different from any man I’d ever dated.

He was kind.

Genuinely kind, the kind of kindness that wasn’t performative, that didn’t come with strings attached.

He never tried to impress me with his money or his job or his connections. He was a pediatrician, and he talked about his patients the way I talked about Lily—with so much love it made my chest ache. He never made me feel like I had to choose between my career and my family. He celebrated my wins like they were his own. When I told him I was a single mom, he didn’t flinch. He just smiled and said, “I can’t wait to meet her. She sounds amazing.”

Our first date was coffee at a small bookstore in Greenwich Village.

We talked for three hours, until the barista had to kick us out because they were closing. We talked about everything—our childhoods, our worst jobs, our favorite movies, the things we were scared of. I told him about Julian, about the wedding, about the custody battle. I didn’t leave anything out.

He listened.

He didn’t judge.

He just held my hand across the table and said, “You are the strongest woman I have ever met. Lily is so lucky to have you.”

I cried a little.

No one had ever said that to me before.

Not really.

We took things slow.

We went to dinner, to art galleries, to long walks in Central Park. He came over to the estate a few times, for Sunday brunch with my family. Marcus liked him immediately—they spent three hours talking about football on the back porch while Lily chased the dogs around the yard. My mother adored him, because he brought her peonies every time he came over, her favorite flower.

The only person I was nervous about was Lily.

I’d never introduced her to anyone I was dating.

I’d promised myself I’d never bring a man around her unless I was sure he was going to stay.

I was sure about Ethan.

But I was still scared.

What if she didn’t like him?

What if she thought he was trying to replace Julian? (Not that Julian had ever been around to replace.)

What if I messed this up?

We planned the first meeting for a Saturday afternoon in November.

Ethan came over to the estate. He brought Lily a giant stuffed giraffe—her favorite animal—and a box of the chocolate chip cookies she loved from the bakery downtown.

Lily was shy at first.

She hid behind my leg, staring at him with her big blue eyes, her thumb in her mouth.

Ethan didn’t push it.

He just sat down on the floor of the playroom, cross-legged, and started building a Lego castle by himself. He talked to her softly, telling her about the time he’d built a Lego rocket ship when he was a kid, and his dog had eaten it.

Lily watched him for five minutes.

Then she pulled her thumb out of her mouth, walked over to him, and sat down right beside him.

She picked up a Lego block.

“Help,” she said, holding it out to him.

Ethan smiled.

“Absolutely,” he said.

They built the castle together for an hour.

Lily laughed so hard she snort-laughed when Ethan pretended the dragon was going to eat the princess. She let him read her a story before her nap. She even gave him a kiss on the cheek before she went upstairs.

I stood in the doorway of the playroom, watching them, and my heart felt so full I thought it might burst.

After Lily was asleep, Ethan and I sat on the back porch, drinking hot chocolate and watching the leaves fall from the oak trees.

He turned to me.

“I love her,” he said. His voice was quiet, serious. “I know it’s only been a few hours. But I do. She’s perfect. And I love you, Clara. More than I’ve ever loved anyone. I don’t want to rush you. I’ll wait as long as you need. But I needed you to know.”

I kissed him.

It was the first time I’d kissed anyone since Julian.

It felt like coming home.

“I love you too,” I said.

The next six months were perfect.

Ethan moved into the estate in May.

He took a job at the children’s hospital in Hartford, so he could be close to home. He was amazing with Lily. He got up with her in the middle of the night when she had nightmares. He taught her to ride a bike, running beside her until she could do it on her own, his hands hovering over her back just in case. He went to every single one of her soccer games, cheering louder than anyone else on the sidelines, even when her team lost 10-0.

He never tried to be her dad.

He just was.

Lily started calling him “Daddy” on her own, one night at dinner.

We were eating spaghetti. She had sauce all over her face. She looked up at Ethan, holding out her empty plate for more meatballs, and said, “More, Daddy, please.”

The whole table went quiet.

Marcus dropped his fork.

My mother put her hand over her mouth, tears in her eyes.

Ethan’s face went bright red. He looked at me, his eyes wide, like he was scared I’d be upset.

I just smiled.

I nodded at him.

He turned back to Lily, his voice soft.

“Of course, baby girl,” he said. He took her plate and piled it high with meatballs. “Whatever you want.”

Lily beamed.

That night, after she was asleep, Ethan and I sat on the couch in the living room.

He was still a little shaken.

“Did I do the right thing?” he said. “I didn’t want to overstep—”

I kissed him.

“You did perfect,” I said. “She loves you. And you love her. That’s all that matters.”

We started planning the wedding a month later.

It was going to be small.

Just family and close friends, at the estate, in the garden where my parents had gotten married 35 years prior. I didn’t want a big, fancy affair like the one Julian and I had had. I just wanted the people I loved, good food, and Lily as my flower girl.

Then, two weeks before the wedding, there was a knock on the front door.

I was in the kitchen, decorating cupcakes with Lily for her preschool bake sale. Maria answered the door.

A minute later, she came into the kitchen, her face tight.

“Ms. Clara?” she said. “There’s a woman here to see you. Says her name is Victoria Sterling.”

My blood ran cold.

I hadn’t heard from Victoria in two and a half years.

The restraining order was still in effect. She wasn’t supposed to be within 500 feet of the property.

I stood up, wiping my hands on my jeans.

“Stay here with Lily,” I said to Maria.

I walked to the front door.

Victoria was standing on the porch.

She looked nothing like the woman I’d known.

Her expensive clothes were gone. She was wearing a faded sweatshirt and sweatpants, her hair was gray and pulled back in a messy ponytail, and she’d lost so much weight her clothes hung off her. Her face was lined, her eyes red-rimmed, like she’d been crying.

She held a small, wrapped gift in her hands.

“Clara,” she said. Her voice was hoarse, quiet. “I know I’m not supposed to be here. I know the restraining order. I called the police myself before I drove up. I told them I was coming, that I just wanted to talk for five minutes, and then I’d leave. They said they’d be here in 10 minutes to make sure I go. Please. Just five minutes.”

I stared at her.

I should have slammed the door in her face.

I should have called the security team and had her removed.

But something in her eyes stopped me.

She looked broken.

Truly broken, in a way she’d never been before. All the arrogance, all the cruelty, all the obsession with status and heirs was gone. There was nothing left but regret.

“Five minutes,” I said.

I stepped outside, closing the door behind me so Lily wouldn’t see.

We stood on the porch, the warm summer wind blowing through the oak trees.

Victoria looked down at the gift in her hands.

“I’m dying,” she said. Her voice was flat, like she was talking about the weather. “Lung cancer. The doctors say I have six months, maybe less. I’ve spent the last two years alone. No friends. No family. Julian won’t even take my calls. I have nothing. No one. And I’ve spent every single day of those two years thinking about what I did to you. To Lily.”

She looked up at me.

Tears were rolling down her face.

“I was wrong,” she said. “So wrong. I thought an heir was everything. I thought a boy was the only thing that mattered. I ruined my son’s life. I ruined yours. I missed out on knowing my only granddaughter because I was too stupid and too proud to see that she was perfect, just as she was. I don’t expect you to forgive me. I don’t deserve it. But I wanted to give her this. Before I go.”

She held out the small, wrapped gift.

“It’s the Sterling family locket,” she said. “My mother gave it to me. I was supposed to give it to my grandson. But it belongs to Lily. She’s the only real Sterling heir there ever was.”

I took the gift.

It was small, light.

“I won’t tell her who it’s from,” I said. “Not until she’s older. If ever.”

Victoria nodded.

“I understand,” she said. “That’s fine. That’s more than I deserve.”

She turned to leave.

Then she stopped.

“Is she happy?” she said, her voice barely a whisper. “Lily?”

I thought about Lily—her laugh, her smile, the way she ran to Ethan when he got home from work, the way she loved her preschool, her soccer team, her cats, her peanut butter sandwiches.

“She’s the happiest little girl in the world,” I said.

Victoria cried harder.

“Good,” she said. “That’s all that matters.”

She walked down the porch steps.

Two police cars were pulling up the driveway as she got into her old, beat-up sedan. She waved at them, showing them her hands, and got in. She drove away without looking back.

I stood on the porch, holding the locket, and watched her go.

I didn’t feel hate.

I didn’t feel anger.

I just felt sad.

For the life she’d wasted, chasing something that didn’t matter. For the love she’d thrown away, because she’d been too blind to see it was right in front of her.

I went back inside.

I put the locket in the back of my jewelry box, where I’d keep it for Lily, if she ever wanted it.

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Then I went back to the kitchen, where Lily was covered in cupcake frosting, laughing as Ethan chased her around the table.

Everything was as it should be.

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