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Chapter 8

Life after Ethan’s death was… different.

Quieter.

Lighter.

Like a huge, heavy weight I’d been carrying around for five years had finally been lifted off my shoulders.

I didn’t have to look over my shoulder anymore.

I didn’t have to be scared every time the phone rang, every time a car slowed down outside our building, every time Lila fussed in her sleep.

He was gone.

Really gone.

And he was never coming back.

We fixed the broken nursery window, of course.

My mother wanted to move us to a different penthouse, a different building, a different city even, anywhere that didn’t hold the memory of that terrible night.

But I said no.

This was our home.

Lila’s home.

We weren’t going to let one last terrible act of Ethan’s chase us away from the life we’d built.

Instead, we redecorated the whole nursery.

New paint.

New curtains.

New furniture.

Everything bright and happy and full of light, to chase away the last of the shadows.

Lila’s first birthday came three months later.

We had a huge party in the penthouse, with over fifty people—our friends, the employees from Lila’s Threads, the security team and their families, my mother’s friends from her foundation.

A giant pink cake shaped like a teddy bear.

Balloons everywhere.

A magician who made Lila laugh so hard she snort-laughed, which made everyone else laugh even harder.

She smashed her little face into her cake, getting pink frosting in her hair, her eyebrows, her eyelashes, and clapped her tiny hands like it was the best thing that had ever happened to her.

My mother took a thousand pictures.

That night, after all the guests had left, after Lila was asleep in her crib, full of cake and excitement, my mom and I sat on the balcony, drinking wine, looking out over the city.

“Can you believe it’s been a year?” I said, swirling the wine in my glass. “A whole year since she was born. A whole year since we got rid of Ethan for good.”

My mother smiled, clinking her glass against mine.

“Feels like yesterday,” she said. “And it feels like a lifetime ago. Hard to remember what life was like before she was here. Before we found each other again.”

She was quiet for a minute, looking out at the lights.

“I have something to tell you,” she said. “Something I’ve been meaning to say for a while now.”

I turned to look at her.

“What is it?” I said.

She took a deep breath.

“I’m stepping down from running the foundation,” she said. “And I’m putting all my assets in a trust. For you. For Lila. All of it. The businesses. The real estate. The investments. Everything. It’s all yours.”

I stared at her, my mouth falling open.

“Mom,” I said. “No. I can’t take all that. That’s yours. You worked so hard for it. You risked your life for it. I have my own business now. It’s doing great. I don’t need—”

She held up her hand, stopping me.

“Let me finish,” she said. “I’m not dying. I’m not going anywhere. I’m just… tired. I’ve spent twenty years running, fighting, hiding, building an empire to make sure I’d have enough to take care of you if I ever found you again. And now I have you. And Lila. And that’s all I ever really wanted. I don’t need a billion dollars. I don’t need to run ten companies. I just want to be Grandma. I want to take Lila to the park. I want to bake cookies with her. I want to be there for every recital, every soccer game, every first day of school. I want to make up for all the birthdays I missed of yours. All the first days of school. All the heartbreaks. I don’t want to waste another second of the time we have left together sitting in a boardroom arguing with men in suits about money. Money doesn’t matter. You matter. Lila matters. That’s it.”

Tears filled my eyes.

“Are you sure?” I whispered.

“Never been surer of anything in my life,” she said, smiling. “Besides… your business is already worth more than half my old companies combined. You don’t need my money. But I want you to have it anyway. To use for good. For the foundation. For Lila’s future. For whatever you want. It’s yours.”

I leaned over and hugged her tight.

“Thank you,” I said, crying into her shoulder. “For everything.”

She kissed the top of my head.

“Thank you,” she said. “For forgiving me. For giving me a second chance at being a mom. For giving me the greatest gift in the whole world—that beautiful little girl sleeping down the hall. You gave me my life back, Maya. More than I ever gave you.”

We sat there for a long time, watching the stars come out, making plans for the future.

We decided to merge Lila’s Threads with my mother’s old foundation, creating a huge new nonprofit that made and donated baby clothes to single mothers and families in need all over the country.

Every purchase from Lila’s Threads funded a free set of clothes for a baby who needed them.

Within a year, we’d donated over a million outfits.

We opened free daycare centers in low-income neighborhoods, so single moms could go to work without worrying about who was watching their kids.

We started scholarship funds for women going back to school after leaving abusive relationships.

We built safe houses for women and children trying to escape domestic violence.

Everything we’d been through—all the pain, all the fear, all the loneliness—we turned it into good.

Into something that helped people.

That saved people.

Lila grew up knowing that her purpose in life was to be kind, to help others, to stand up for people who couldn’t stand up for themselves.

She was four years old the first time she came with us to one of the safe houses, carrying an armful of teddy bears she’d picked out herself to give to the kids living there.

She walked right up to a little girl her age who was hiding behind her mom’s legs, scared and quiet, and held out the biggest, softest teddy bear she had.

“Hi,” she said, her voice sweet and sure. “My name is Lila. This bear is named Cuddles. He’s very good at keeping bad dreams away. You can have him. My grandma says everyone deserves to feel safe.”

The little girl took the bear, a tiny smile spreading across her face.

I looked at my mother, standing beside me.

We both had tears in our eyes.

We’d done good.

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Really good.

And the best was yet to come.

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