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Chapter 10

Five years later.

The sun was setting over our backyard, painting the sky in shades of pink and purple and gold.

I sat on the big wooden porch swing James had built me for our fifth anniversary, watching the people I loved most in the world running around the lawn.

Lila was eleven now.

Tall, with my dark curly hair, James’s kind brown eyes, and that signature crooked dimple we all shared.

She was chasing our two golden retrievers—Max and Ruby—around the big oak tree in the middle of the yard, screaming with laughter, while James ran after her, pretending to be a monster, roaring and waving his arms.

My mother sat on the porch beside me, holding our newest addition—six-month-old Noah, our sweet, chubby little boy, fast asleep in her arms, his tiny fist wrapped around her finger.

She looked happy.

Truly happy.

No more secrets.

No more running.

No more fear.

Just… peace.

“Can you believe it?” she said quietly, looking down at Noah, brushing a strand of hair off his forehead. “All of this. Five years ago, I was just a woman who’d spent twenty years in hiding, terrified to even say my own name out loud, desperate to find the daughter I’d lost. And now? I have a daughter who loves me. A son-in-law who treats her like a queen. Two perfect grandchildren. A whole family. It’s more than I ever dared to dream of.”

I leaned my head on her shoulder, looking out at my laughing family.

“I know what you mean,” I said. “Five years ago, I was sitting in that courtroom, eight months pregnant, forty-seven dollars in my pocket, convinced my life was over. I thought I’d lost everything. But I was wrong. I hadn’t lost anything that mattered. I’d just gained the courage to walk away from the people who were hurting me. And then I found you. And then I found all of this.”

James caught Lila, lifting her up and spinning her around, making her shriek with delight.

He looked over at us, smiling that warm smile, and winked.

I smiled back.

The foundation was bigger than ever now.

We’d opened over fifty free clinics across the country.

We’d donated more than ten million baby outfits to families in need.

We’d helped over ten thousand women escape abusive relationships, giving them housing, jobs, childcare, a fresh start.

Every single one of them had a story just like mine.

Every single one of them had felt alone, scared, hopeless, like their lives would never get better.

And we got to help them.

Got to show them that there was light at the end of the tunnel.

That they were strong enough to make it.

That they weren’t alone.

Last month, we’d opened the Elena Voss Center for Women and Children—a huge, beautiful safe house and resource center in the middle of the city, named after my mother.

The day it opened, a woman had come up to me, holding a tiny baby in her arms, tears running down her face.

She’d told me she’d left her abusive husband two weeks before, with nothing but the clothes on her back and her baby.

She’d heard about our center from a social worker.

She’d thought she had nowhere to go.

No one to turn to.

And now?

She had a roof over her head.

A job training program.

Free childcare.

Hope.

“Thank you,” she’d said, squeezing my hand. “For not forgetting what it’s like to be at the bottom. For giving people like me a second chance.”

I’d cried then, holding her and her baby, telling her that she was strong, that she could do anything, that she was never alone again.

That was why we did it.

That was the point of all of it.

All the pain.

All the fear.

All the fighting.

It had led us here.

To this.

To being able to lift other women up when they were down.

To making sure no one ever had to feel as alone and scared as I’d felt in that courtroom five years before.

Lila ran over to the porch, breathless, her cheeks pink from running, her hair a wild mess.

“Mom! Grandma!” she said, bouncing up and down. “Can we make s’mores? Please? Daddy said we can if you say yes! Please please please!”

I laughed, looking at James, who walked up behind her, grinning, holding a bag of marshmallows and a box of graham crackers.

“Only if you promise to share with your brother when he wakes up,” I said.

“I promise! I promise!” Lila said, already running to the fire pit James had built by the patio.

James lit the fire while my mother carefully handed Noah to me, then went inside to get the chocolate bars and the plates.

Noah stirred a little in my arms, letting out a tiny squeak, then opened his big blue eyes and smiled at me, his whole face lighting up.

“Hi, sweet boy,” I whispered, kissing his soft forehead. “Hi, my love.”

James sat down beside me on the swing, putting his arm around my shoulders, pulling me close to his side.

“Penny for your thoughts?” he said, kissing the top of my head.

I looked from the fire, where Lila was already trying to roast a marshmallow (and burning it, of course), to my mother carrying a stack of plates out onto the patio, singing off-key to herself, to Noah asleep in my arms, warm and safe and perfect, to the man beside me who loved me more than anything.

And I smiled.

“I was just thinking,” I said. “About how perfect everything is. How lucky I am. How I wouldn’t change a single thing that happened to me, not even the bad parts, because every single thing led me here. To this moment. To all of you.”

James squeezed me tighter.

“You deserve every bit of this,” he said. “Every single bit. You fought for it. You earned it. You are the strongest, kindest, most amazing woman I’ve ever known. And I’m the luckiest man alive to get to love you.”

My mother came over, sitting down on the other side of me, as Lila ran over with a slightly charred but very enthusiastic s’more for each of us.

We sat there together, the five of us, eating s’mores, watching the fire crackle, watching the stars come out one by one in the darkening sky.

Lila told us all about her day at school, talking a mile a minute, while Noah woke up and decided he wanted to chew on a graham cracker (and got crumbs everywhere, of course).

My mother laughed at something Lila said, throwing her head back, her eyes crinkling at the corners, looking younger and happier than I’d ever seen her.

James held my hand, his thumb rubbing slow, gentle circles on my knuckles.

And for a second, I closed my eyes.

I could almost hear the echo of that gavel falling in the cold, empty courtroom five years before.

I could almost feel the weight of the duffel bag in my hand, the forty-seven dollars in my pocket, the terror of knowing I had nowhere to go.

I could almost hear Ethan’s laugh, cruel and sharp, as he walked out of that courtroom with everything I’d ever owned.

And then I opened my eyes.

And I was here.

Surrounded by love.

By safety.

By joy.

Justice had been served.

The people who’d tried to destroy me were gone, one way or another.

I was safe.

My children were safe.

My family was whole.

And I was finally, completely, undeniably happy.

The fire popped, sending a shower of sparks up into the night sky.

Lila gasped, pointing.

“Look, Mom!” she said. “A shooting star! Make a wish!”

I closed my eyes again.

But I didn’t need to wish for anything.

I already had everything I’d ever wanted.

Everything I’d ever needed.

Right here.

I opened my eyes, looking at my beautiful family, and smiled.

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Life didn’t get any better than this.

The end.

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