Chapter 7

Margaret decided to visit Ethan six months after he was transferred to a minimum-security prison outside of Phoenix.
She drove down early in the morning, her hands tight on the steering wheel. She did not know what she expected to feel. Anger? Sadness? Pity?
She checked in at the prison, sat in the cold visiting room, and waited.
When Ethan walked in, she almost did not recognize him. He was thinner, his hair cut short, the arrogant smirk she had grown to hate gone from his face. He wore an orange jumpsuit, his hands cuffed in front of him.
He stopped when he saw her, his eyes filling with tears.
“Mom,” he said, sitting down across from her. “You came.”
Margaret nodded, her throat tight.
“I came,” she said.
They sat in silence for a minute. Ethan wiped his eyes with the back of his hand.
“I’ve been going to therapy,” he said, his voice quiet. “Every week. I’ve been writing apology letters to everyone. Aunt Marnie wrote me back. She said she’ll never forgive me, but she hopes I get better.”
He paused, looking down at his hands.
“Chloe sent me a letter last month. She said none of this was her fault, that I manipulated her. Can you believe that?”
Margaret did not say anything. She had known Chloe would try to blame Ethan. That was what people like her did.
“I know I have no right to ask you this,” Ethan said, looking up at her. “But do you think you could ever forgive me? Even a little?”
Margaret took a deep breath.
“I don’t know,” she said honestly. “What you did to me… it broke me. I spent months wondering what I did wrong, why you hated me so much you could hurt me like that.”
Ethan shook his head, tears streaming down his face.
“I don’t hate you, Mom. I never did. I was just… angry. And selfish. And stupid. When Dad died, I was so scared of being alone, I started taking you for granted. I thought you’d always be there, no matter what I did. Chloe told me you’d never leave me, even if I hurt you. I believed her. I used your love against you, and I’ll never be able to make that right.”
He paused, swallowing hard.
“I’m not asking you to be my mom again,” he said. “I know I lost that right. But if you could… if you could just write to me sometimes. Let me know how you’re doing. That’s all I want. I just want to know you’re okay.”
Margaret looked at him. She saw the little boy she used to love, buried under all the lies and greed. She saw the regret in his eyes, the pain of what he had done.
“I’ll write,” she said, her voice soft. “And I’ll come visit. But it’s not going to be easy. It’s going to take a long time, if it ever happens at all. We can’t be mother and son again, not for a very long time. Maybe never. But we can try to be two people who care about each other, from a distance.”
Ethan nodded, sobbing.
“Thank you,” he said. “Thank you, Mom.”
Margaret left the prison that day with a heavy heart, but also a strange lightness. She had carried the weight of Ethan’s betrayal for so long, it felt good to let a little of it go.
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She did not know what the future held.
But for the first time, she was not afraid of it.