Chapter 19

Grace read the letter slowly.
Her face was expressionless as she read, giving away nothing of what she was feeling.
When she finished, she sat there for a long time, holding the letter in her hands.
"Well?" I asked gently. "What do you think?"
She looked up at me, her eyes glistening with tears.
"I don't know," she whispered. "Part of me wants to see him. To... I don't know. To get answers. To tell him how much he hurt me. To tell him about my life, about The Grace Fund, about everything I've done."
She paused.
"But another part of me is scared. What if he's not what I expect? What if it's too painful? What if seeing him just opens up old wounds?"
I nodded, understanding completely.
"Those are all valid feelings, sweetheart. And there's no right or wrong answer here. This is your choice. Whatever you decide, your father and I will support you. And whatever you decide, it will be the right decision for you."
"What would you do?" she asked.
I thought about that.
"If I were you... I think I would go. Not for him. But for me. To get the answers I needed. To say the things I needed to say. To close that chapter of my life once and for all. But that's just me. You have to do what feels right for you."
Grace was quiet for a long moment.
Then she stood up.
"I want to go," she said firmly. "But I want you there with me. And Daddy too. I don't want to be alone with him."
"Of course," I said immediately. "We'll be right there with you. The whole time."
I called the prison the next day.
They were hesitant at first. Mark was a high-security inmate, and contact with his victims was strictly prohibited. But when I explained the situation—his terminal illness, Grace's desire to see him, our willingness to be present the entire time—they agreed to make an exception.
The visit was scheduled for two weeks later.
The days leading up to it were tense.
Grace was quiet, withdrawn. She alternated between being angry at Mark for dying and leaving her with all these questions, and feeling guilty for being angry.
David and I did our best to support her. We talked to her, listened to her, reassured her that whatever happened during the visit, we would be there for her.
Margaret came to visit a few days before the trip.
She sat down with Grace and talked to her for a long time. About Mark. About the little boy he'd been, full of potential and joy. About the man he'd become, broken and selfish and full of regret.
"Seeing him won't fix anything," she told Grace gently. "It won't bring back the years you lost. It won't make up for the choices he made. But it might give you... closure. A chance to say the things you need to say. And then you can move forward, knowing you did everything you needed to do."
Grace nodded.
"Thank you, Grandma Margaret."
The day of the visit, we drove to the prison, three hours away.
Grace was quiet the whole drive, staring out the window.
David held my hand, his grip tight. He was doing this for Grace, but I knew it wasn't easy for him either. The man who'd tried to destroy his family, who'd hurt the woman he loved, who'd threatened his daughter... and now they were going to sit in a room with him.
But he was doing it for Grace.
Because that's what fathers do.
The prison was a stark, imposing building, surrounded by fences and barbed wire and guard towers.
We went through security, turning over our phones and our belongings, being searched and questioned.
Finally, we were led to a small, sterile visiting room.
There was a table in the middle, and three chairs on our side.
And on the other side, behind a thick sheet of Plexiglas, was Mark.
He looked terrible.
Pale, gaunt, his hair gray and thinning. He was much thinner than the last time I'd seen him, his clothes hanging loosely on his frame.
But when he saw Grace, his face lit up.
He stood up, pressing his hand against the Plexiglas.
Grace stopped when she saw him.
She stood there for a long moment, just looking at him.
Then she walked forward and sat down at the table.
David and I sat on either side of her.
Mark sat down too.
There was a phone system so we could talk.
Grace picked up her phone.
Mark picked up his.
"Hi, Grace," he said, his voice rough, tears in his eyes. "You're beautiful. Just like your mother."
Grace didn't smile.
"Hi," she said simply.
They looked at each other for a long moment.
Then Grace took a deep breath.
"I read your letter," she said. "About the cancer. I'm sorry you're sick."
"Thank you," Mark whispered. "I didn't tell you to make you feel sorry for me. I just... I wanted to be honest. And I wanted to see you. One more time."
"Why?" Grace asked, her voice steady. "Why now? Why didn't you try to be my father when you had the chance? Why did you do all those terrible things to my mom? To me?"
Mark closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face.
"I don't have any good answers, Grace. I wish I did. I was weak. And selfish. And stupid. I let my own insecurities and my own anger destroy the best thing that ever happened to me. I hurt your mother. I hurt you. And I will regret it for the rest of my life, however short that might be."
He looked at me, his eyes full of regret.
"I'm sorry, Anna. For everything."
I nodded, but I didn't say anything. This was Grace's moment, not mine.
Grace was quiet for a moment.
"I started a program," she said finally. "The Grace Fund. It helps kids who are going through what I went through. Kids whose parents make bad choices, who aren't there for them."
Mark smiled through his tears.
"That's wonderful, Grace. You're doing something amazing with your life. Something that matters. I'm so proud of you. Even though I don't have the right to be."
"I also have a little brother," Grace continued. "Matthew. He's ten. He's really smart, and he loves sports, and he's the best brother in the world. And I have Daddy David. He's my real dad. He's been there for me since I was a baby. He loves me, and he takes care of me, and he's everything a father should be."
Her voice cracked.
"You missed all of it, Mark. My first steps, my first words, my first day of school, my birthdays, everything. You threw it all away. And I'm angry about that. I'm so angry that you made the choices you did. That I'll never have the father I deserved."
Tears were streaming down her face now.
"But I'm also grateful," she continued. "Because if you hadn't made those choices, my mom never would have met Daddy David. We never would have had Matthew. We never would have had this life. This wonderful, perfect life. And I wouldn't trade it for anything."
She looked him directly in the eye.
"I forgive you, Mark. Not because you deserve it. But because I don't want to carry this anger around for the rest of my life. I want to be free of it. I want to move forward."
She paused.
"But I don't want you in my life. Not now, not ever. This is goodbye. I hope you find peace. And I hope that wherever you go next, you finally become the person you could have been."
She put down the phone.
She stood up.
And she walked away.
David and I stood up and followed her.
I looked back at Mark one last time.
He was sitting there, his head in his hands, sobbing.
I didn't feel triumph.
I didn't feel anger.
I just felt... peace.
It was over.
Really over.
We walked out of the prison and into the bright sunshine.
Grace took a deep breath of fresh air.
And then she smiled.
A real, genuine smile.
"I feel lighter," she said. "Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders."
I pulled her into my arms.
"I'm so proud of you, baby. So, so proud."
David put his arms around both of us.
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"Let's go home," he said.
And we did.