Chapter 5

The next few days were a blur.
Logan didn't leave the hospital.
He slept in the uncomfortable chair beside my bed, woke up every time the baby stirred, and brought me whatever I needed before I even asked.
Dr. Wright visited every chance he got.
He'd stand in the corner, watching Logan with the baby, a quiet smile on his face. Sometimes he'd offer to hold his grandson, and Logan would hesitate before passing him over.
It was awkward.
Stilted.
But it was something.
We named the baby William.
Will for short.
On the day we were discharged, Logan helped me into the car. He'd already packed my things, installed the car seat himself, double-checked it three times.
"Where are we going?" I asked as he climbed into the driver's seat.
He looked at me, uncertainty in his eyes.
"I… I know you have your place. But it's small. And it's above a laundromat. I have an apartment. Two bedrooms. It's not much, but it's bigger. Safer."
He paused, swallowing hard.
"I want to be there for him, Joanna. For both of you. But I understand if you don't trust me. If you need time."
I looked at Will, sleeping peacefully in his car seat.
Then I looked at Logan.
The man who'd left me.
The man who'd come back.
The man who was trying, every single day, to be better than the example he'd been given.
"Okay," I said quietly.
Relief flooded his face.
The apartment was nice. Clean. Bright. Nothing like the small, dark room I'd been living in.
Logan had set up a nursery in the second bedroom. A crib. A changing table. Soft blankets. A mobile with stars that turned slowly above the mattress.
"You did this?" I asked, surprised.
He nodded, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. "While you were in the hospital. I didn't know what you'd like, so I just… picked what I thought he'd need."
I touched the soft blanket draped over the side of the crib.
"It's perfect."
That first night was hard.
Will woke up every two hours, hungry or fussy or just needing to be held.
But Logan was there every time.
He changed diapers. He warmed bottles. He walked the floor with Will when nothing else would calm him, humming a lullaby his mother used to sing.
I watched from the doorway once, as he sat in the rocking chair, Will asleep on his chest.
He was talking to him softly.
"I'm not going anywhere," he whispered. "I know your grandpa messed up. And I know I messed up too. But I'm going to spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I'm going to be at every birthday. Every game. Every graduation. I'm never going to let you wonder if you're loved."
He kissed the top of Will's head.
"You're the best thing that ever happened to me, little man. And I'm never going to forget that."
I quietly went back to bed, tears in my eyes.
Not sad tears.
Something else.
Something that felt a lot like hope.
A week later, Dr. Wright came over for dinner.
It was tense at first.
Logan barely spoke to him. Just handed him a beer, gestured toward the couch, and went back to the kitchen.
But as the evening wore on, something shifted.
Dr. Wright held Will while Logan and I cleaned up the dishes. I heard him talking to the baby in the living room.
"Your daddy was about your age when I held him last," he said softly. "I thought about him every day. Wondered what he was doing. If he was happy. If he knew, somewhere deep down, that I loved him even when I wasn't there."
He paused.
"I should have fought harder. I should have been braver. But I'm going to be here for you, Will. I'm going to be the grandpa your daddy deserved. I promise you that."
Logan stood beside me at the sink, his hands still in the soapy water.
He was crying.
Quietly.
But I saw the tears fall into the bubbles.
I didn't say anything.
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I just put my hand on his arm.
And for the first time since I'd met him, he leaned into my touch.