Chapter 9

The trial was set for six months later.
The prosecution had a mountain of evidence.
The tapes.
The emails.
The testimony of former victims’ families.
Maria the housekeeper.
The waiter from the wedding.
Natalie and Marcus pleaded not guilty.
They didn’t have a choice.
The evidence was overwhelming.
But they still fought.
Natalie fired her attorney.
She decided to represent herself.
It was a risky move.
But it gave her something she wanted more than anything.
Control of the courtroom.
And the chance to cross-examine Jackson.
The day he was called to the stand was the hardest day of his life.
Natalie stood at the defense table.
She was wearing an orange jumpsuit.
Her hair was pulled back.
No makeup.
But she was still beautiful.
Still charismatic.
And she knew exactly how to play to the jury.
“Mr. Westbrook,” she said, walking slowly toward the witness stand. “You and I were together for three years. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“During those three years, I told you I loved you. Every day. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“And you told me you loved me. Every day. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“Did I ever hit you?”
“No.”
“Did I ever steal from you?”
“You tried.”
“Answer the question, Mr. Westbrook. Before the wedding. Before all of this. Did I ever take anything from you that wasn’t freely given?”
Jackson paused.
“No,” he said.
“You bought me gifts. Cars. Jewelry. Trips. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“You paid my rent. Three years in advance. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“You gave me your credit cards. No limit. Correct?”
“Correct.”
“And I never asked you for any of it,” she said softly. “You offered. Because you loved me. Because you wanted to take care of me. Because for the first time since your father died, you felt like a man again. Isn’t that right?”
The prosecution objected.
The judge overruled.
“Answer the question,” Natalie said.
“Yes,” Jackson said. “That’s right.”
She leaned against the witness stand.
She looked at the jury.
“Three years,” she said. “Three years of laughter. Three years of tears. Three years of building a life together. And then, the night before our wedding, you found out something that changed everything. Didn’t you?”
Jackson frowned.
“What are you talking about?”
“You found out I was pregnant,” she said. “And you panicked. Because the thought of being a father—of being responsible for another human being the way your father was responsible for you—it terrified you. You didn’t want this baby. You didn’t want me. You just wanted an excuse to get out of the wedding without looking like the bad guy.”
“That’s not true—”
“Isn’t it?” she said, raising her voice. “You told me, Jackson. You told me a hundred times that you would never be half the man your father was. That you would never be able to run the company. That you were a disappointment. And when I got pregnant, all those fears came rushing back. So you and your mother concocted this elaborate story. The shaved head. The note. The fake recordings. Anything to make me look like the villain so you wouldn’t have to admit the truth.”
She turned to the jury.
“Eleanor Westbrook is a powerful woman,” she said. “She controls a billion-dollar empire. She controls the police. The judges. The media. She has the resources to fake any evidence. To buy any witness. To destroy any life that gets in her way. And when her only son tried to grow up, tried to leave the nest, tried to become his own man… she crushed me. And she used him to do it.”
She turned back to Jackson.
Tears streamed down her face.
Real tears.
I don’t know how she did it.
“I don’t hate you, Jackson,” she said. “I could never hate you. Because I know the truth. I know you’re not a bad man. You’re just a weak man. And weak men do terrible things when their mothers tell them to.”
She walked back to the defense table.
“No more questions,” she said.
Jackson left the stand shaking.
He had been destroyed.
In front of twelve strangers.
In front of the world.
Natalie had taken everything he had said, every vulnerable moment he had shared with her in three years, and twisted it into a weapon.
And it was working.
I could see it in the jury’s faces.
They were no longer sure.
They were looking at Jackson differently.
Like he was the criminal.
Arthur was furious.
“I should have objected more,” he said in the hallway after. “I should have stopped her—”
“No,” I said. “She wanted you to object. She wanted to look like the poor, defenseless woman being bullied by the rich family’s fancy lawyer. You did the right thing by letting her talk. Now we get to answer.”
The next day, the prosecution called me to the stand.
Natalie stood.
She was ready.
She thought she had already won.
“Mrs. Westbrook,” she said. “You’ve been married twice. Correct?”
“Once,” I said. “To Frank. For forty-two years. Until the day he died.”
“Of course,” she said. “The perfect marriage. The perfect family. The perfect life. Except it wasn’t perfect, was it? Your husband died. And your son fell apart. And suddenly, you were all alone. With nothing but your money and your big empty house.”
“I had my son,” I said. “I had my family.”
“Did you?” she said. “Or did you have a possession? A little boy you could control forever. Until I came along. Until someone else loved him. And then you couldn’t stand it. Could you?”
“I loved my son enough to let him go,” I said. “Even when I thought he was making the biggest mistake of his life. Even when you were hurting him. Even when you were hurting me. I stepped back. Because that’s what mothers do. We let our children make their own choices. Even the wrong ones.”
Natalie smiled.
“Spare me the mommy act,” she said. “You knew. You knew from the first night you met me that I wasn’t good enough for your precious Jackson. You spent three years trying to break us up. Trying to turn him against me. And when nothing worked, you shaved your own head. You wrote that note to yourself. You destroyed your own dress. You faked the security tapes. You paid off the witnesses. All to keep your little boy.”
She leaned forward.
“Admit it, Eleanor,” she hissed. “You’d rather see him alone and miserable than happy with someone who isn’t you.”
The courtroom was silent.
Everyone was waiting for me to snap.
To cry.
To scream.
I did none of those things.
I looked at Natalie.
Truly looked at her.
For the first time, I didn’t see a monster.
I saw a little girl.
A little girl who had been hurt so badly, so early in life, that the only way she knew how to survive was to hurt everyone else first.
A little girl who had never been loved.
Not really.
Not the way Frank and I had loved Jackson.
Not the way a child deserves to be loved.
And in that moment, I didn’t feel anger.
I felt pity.
Deep, overwhelming pity.
“I’m not going to argue with you, Natalie,” I said. My voice was calm. Steady. “I’m not going to call you names. I’m not going to try to convince the jury of anything. The evidence speaks for itself. The tapes. The bodies. The six men who are dead because of you and your brother.”
I paused.
“But I will tell you this,” I said. “You’re right about one thing. I would do anything for my son. I would shave my head. I would destroy my dress. I would give every dollar I have. I would die for him. Because that’s what love is. It’s not about control. It’s not about money. It’s about being willing to burn your own life to the ground if it means your child gets to live.”
I looked at the jury.
“Natalie doesn’t know what that feels like,” I said. “She has never loved anyone more than she loves herself. She has never sacrificed anything for anyone. And because of that, she will never understand why I did what I did. Why any mother does what she does.”
I turned back to Natalie.
“You think you won because you made Jackson cry,” I said. “You think you won because you made me look like a monster in front of these people. But you didn’t win. Because you have nothing. You have no one. The baby growing inside you will grow up knowing exactly who his parents are. And when he’s old enough to understand, he will hate you. Just like everyone else who ever knew the real you will hate you.”
I leaned forward.
“You could have had everything, Natalie,” I said. “If you had just loved him. If you had just been the woman you pretended to be. He would have given you the world. We both would have. But you couldn’t. Because you don’t know how. And that’s the saddest thing I’ve ever known.”
I sat back.
“No more questions,” I said.
Natalie stood there.
Her mouth open.
She had nothing.
No comeback.
No insult.
No manipulation.
Because for the first time in her life, someone had seen her.
Truly seen her.
And she didn’t like what was reflected back.
The jury deliberated for three days.
Three days of agony.
On the fourth day, they came back.
Guilty.
On all counts.
All six murders.
All the fraud.
All the conspiracy.
Everything.
The judge sentenced them to life without parole.
Plus two hundred and fifty years.
Just to be safe.
As the guards led Natalie away, she looked at Jackson.
She didn’t say anything.
She didn’t smile.
She didn’t glare.
She just looked.
May you like
And in her eyes, I saw something I had never seen before.
Regret.