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Chapter 2

I didn’t speak until we were three miles down the highway.

Catherine sat in the passenger seat, wrapped in the emergency blanket I kept in the trunk, her ruined dress bundled in a garbage bag in the back. Jennifer had ridden with us, silent as stone, staring out the rear window like she expected Trevor to come chasing after us.

He didn’t.

“Are you hurt?” I asked Catherine, my eyes on the road.

She shook her head slowly. Then she pressed one hand to her mouth and the tears finally came. Not loud sobs. Quiet, gasping cries that shook her shoulders like something was tearing loose inside her.

Jennifer reached over and held her hand.

“How could he?” Catherine whispered. “How could he just stand there?”

I didn’t have an answer. I’d been asking myself the same question since the moment Trevor’s arm went around Madison’s waist instead of reaching for his mother. The boy I’d raised—the boy who’d once cried for an hour because he’d accidentally stepped on a sparrow—was gone. In his place was a stranger in a tuxedo, choosing cruelty over blood.

“Mom,” Jennifer said, her voice raw. “You didn’t do anything wrong. She’s a monster. And he’s… he’s just weak.”

Catherine didn’t answer. She just kept crying, her forehead pressed against the window. The mud had dried in streaks on her neck, and the pearl comb was still stuck crookedly in her hair. I wanted to pull over and yank it out, throw it in a ditch. I wanted to turn the car around and go back. I wanted a dozen things I couldn’t have.

When we pulled into the driveway, the house looked wrong. Too quiet. Too normal. It had only been eight hours since we’d left that morning, laughing and nervous, Catherine floating around the kitchen in her robe, asking if I thought the veil was too much.

Eight hours.

A whole lifetime had happened in eight hours.

Inside, Catherine went straight upstairs to shower. Jennifer and I stood in the kitchen, not moving. The silence in the house was louder than the silence at the wedding.

“Dad,” Jennifer said finally. “We can’t just let this go.”

“I know.”

“She planned it,” Jennifer said, her voice rising. “I saw her face before she did it. She waited until the photographer was turned away. She waited until you were talking to her father. She calculated every second of it.”

I thought about that small, tight smile. The way Trevor had leaned in to whisper. The laugh.

“I know,” I said again. It wasn’t enough.

Jennifer pulled out her phone and started scrolling. “I’m texting everyone we know. I’m telling them exactly what happened. She doesn’t get to be the poor little bride who had her in-laws storm out. She doesn’t get to rewrite this.”

“Jen—”

“No,” she snapped. “You don’t get to talk me out of this. She humiliated Mom. In front of two hundred people. And Trevor let her. If we stay quiet, they win. They get to be the victims. We get to be the crazy in-laws who ruined the perfect day.”

She was right. She was absolutely right. And I hated that I’d even considered saying anything else.

Upstairs, the shower turned off.

A minute later, Catherine came down in sweatpants and one of my old flannel shirts, her hair wrapped in a towel. Her eyes were puffy, her skin scrubbed raw, but the mud was gone. She looked smaller than she had that morning. Frailer.

“Jen,” she said softly. “Don’t.”

Jennifer froze. “Mom, are you serious? After what she did?”

“I don’t want a war,” Catherine said. She sat down at the kitchen table, her hands folded in her lap. “I just want it to be over. I want to pretend none of it ever happened.”

“You can’t pretend—”

“Jennifer.” Catherine’s voice cracked. “Please. I can’t fight them. Not right now. If I have to read about it on Facebook, if I have to hear it from the neighbors, if I have to think about it one more second today… I think I might break.”

Jennifer looked at me, furious and helpless. I gave her the tiniest shake of my head. Not now.

“Fine,” Jennifer said, shoving her phone in her pocket. “For now. But this isn’t over. Not for me.”

She stormed upstairs.

Catherine and I sat alone in the kitchen. The clock on the wall ticked. Somewhere down the street, a dog barked. A normal Saturday afternoon in a normal neighborhood, while my family was splitting apart at the seams.

Catherine reached across the table and took my hand. Her fingers were ice cold.

“Ray,” she said, very quiet. “Do you think he meant it? When he stood there and let her laugh. Do you think that’s really who he is now?”

I looked at my wife—the woman I’d loved for thirty-nine years, the woman who’d given me two children, who’d held my hand through every funeral and every promotion and every sleepless night with colicky babies. I couldn’t lie to her. Not about this.

“I don’t know,” I said. “But I know this: if he wants to be part of this family again, he has a mountain to climb. And he has to climb it alone.”

Catherine nodded slowly. Then she laid her head down on the table and started crying again, quieter this time. I stayed where I was, holding her hand, and let her.

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Somewhere in the house, Jennifer’s phone buzzed. Once. Twice. Three times in a row.

I didn’t have to look to know who it was.

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