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Chapter 8

The wedding was small.

Perfect.

We didn’t want a big production. No country clubs. No hundreds of guests. No seating charts. Just the people who loved us. The people who’d stood by us when no one else would.

We got married in the backyard of the Willow Creek house, under the big oak tree, on a warm Saturday in late September. The same month Ashley had planned her wedding to me. The irony wasn’t lost on either of us. But we didn’t care. This wasn’t about her. This was about us.

Emily wore a simple cream dress. No veil. No train. Just the dress, her hair loose around her shoulders, and my grandmother’s pearl earrings. She carried a bouquet of wildflowers she’d picked herself that morning. She walked down the aisle alone, and I cried the whole way.

I wore a simple navy suit.

Liam and Lily were the ring bearer and flower girl. Well, sort of. Liam walked—or rather, stumbled—down the aisle holding a small pillow with the rings tied to it, and he made it three whole steps before he tripped over his own feet and sat down hard, then looked up at all of us and grinned like he’d done it on purpose. Lily, who was being carried by Emily’s sister, threw exactly one petal, then decided to eat the rest of them.

Everyone laughed.

It was perfect.

The minister who married us was the same one who’d married us the first time. He’d retired years earlier, but he’d driven three hours to be there. When he asked if anyone objected, there was a long, pointed silence, and then my sister yelled out, “If anyone even thinks about it, I will tackle them myself,” and everyone laughed again.

When he said, “You may kiss the bride,” I didn’t hesitate.

I pulled Emily close and I kissed her, right there in front of God and everyone, and the whole world narrowed down to just her. Just the feel of her in my arms. Just the taste of her. Just the quiet, perfect knowledge that I’d gotten the rarest gift in the entire universe.

A second chance.

After the ceremony, we ate barbecue and potato salad and Emily’s famous chocolate cake. We danced in the grass to an old playlist we’d made in college. We watched the twins run around with the other kids, screaming and laughing and covered in cake. We talked and laughed and cried with the people we loved.

And when the sun went down and the last of the guests had left, we stood together on the porch, watching the kids sleep in the living room through the open window, and Emily leaned her head on my shoulder.

“Best day ever,” she said quietly.

“Absolutely.” I kissed the top of her head. “Though I think Liam ate his weight in cake. He’s going to be up all night.”

“Worth it.”

We stood there for a long time, just holding each other, listening to the crickets, watching the stars come out.

Then Emily said something that stopped my heart.

“Michael?”

“Yeah?”

“I want another one.”

I pulled back just enough to look at her face. To make sure she wasn’t joking. She wasn’t. Her eyes were shining. Serious. Happy.

“Another… baby?” I said, my voice cracking.

She nodded.

“Not right now. Maybe next year. Or the year after. Whenever we’re ready. But… yes. I want more of this. More of us. More late nights and dirty diapers and first steps and first words. More family. I know it’s crazy. I know we already have our hands full. But after everything we went through… after almost losing it all… I just want as much of this as I can get. As much of you as I can get.”

I stared at her.

I thought of the year of loss. The empty house. The silence. The loneliness. I thought of Emily on the roadside. Of the twins in the NICU. Of all the moments we’d never get back. And then I thought of this. Of the noise. The mess. The love so big it felt like it would burst out of my chest.

I laughed. A loud, happy, slightly incredulous sound.

“Are you serious?”

“Dead serious.” She grinned, that mischievous grin I’d missed so much. “Unless you don’t want to. In which case I’ll just have to find another man to—”

I kissed her before she could finish.

Hard. Playful. Full of promise.

“Never,” I said, when we pulled apart. “You are never getting rid of me. And if you want more babies? Then we’ll have more babies. As many as you want. Ten. Twenty. A whole football team. Whatever you want. Whatever makes you happy.”

She laughed, wrapping her arms around my neck.

“Let’s start with one more first,” she said. “See how we survive three under three before we go for the whole team.”

“Deal.”

That night, we fell asleep together in the big bed in the master bedroom, the twins in their bassinets right beside us, just like we’d always planned. Emily was curled against my side, her breathing slow and even, her hand resting on my chest right over my heart.

I lay awake for a long time, just watching her sleep.

I thought about how close I’d come to losing all of this. How one choice—one stupid, proud, terrible choice—had almost destroyed everything. How a single lie, repeated often enough by the right people, can unravel a whole life. How easy it is to look at the surface of things and believe you see the truth, when really you’re only seeing what someone wants you to see.

I thought about Ashley in her prison cell.

About my mother in hers.

I didn’t hate them anymore.

Hating them took too much energy. It took up too much space in my heart that was now full of better things. I pitied them, in a way. They’d spent so much of their lives wanting what other people had, scheming and lying and stealing, that they’d never learned how to be happy with what they already had. They’d built their whole lives on sand, and when the tide came in, there was nothing left.

I’d been lucky.

I’d been given a second chance.

Most people never get that. Most people spend their whole lives wondering what if, living with the consequences of their mistakes, never getting to go back and fix them. But I had. I’d gotten to go back. I’d gotten to fight. I’d gotten to win back the woman I loved and the children I’d almost missed.

I wouldn’t waste it.

Not a single day.

I leaned down and kissed Emily’s forehead.

She stirred slightly, mumbled something unintelligible, and snuggled closer.

Somewhere outside, an owl hooted.

May you like

Inside, Lily sighed in her sleep.

And I closed my eyes, finally, completely at peace, and I slept.

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