Chapter 9
The year that followed was the hardest and the best of my life.
Hard, because healing isn’t linear. There were still nightmares. Still days when Lily would flinch if I moved too fast. Still moments when she’d wake up crying, convinced that Vanessa was in the closet, that Daddy was going to come take her away.
But those days got fewer. And farther between.
We sold the old house.
I couldn’t bear to go back. Not even to pack. Clara handled everything—hired movers, sold the furniture, donated what we didn’t want. The money went into a trust fund for Lily. We kept nothing. No memories. No ghosts.
We bought a new house.
Smaller. Cozier. A cottage on the edge of town with a big backyard and an oak tree perfect for climbing. Yellow walls in Lily’s room. A closet full of dresses—yellow ones, pink ones, frilly ones, plain ones. She could wear whatever she wanted. There were no rules about vanity here.
Toys covered every surface. Books stacked on every table. Stuffed animals overflowed the bed. The room was gloriously, perfectly cluttered.
I went back to school.
Not for me—though I did finish my master’s in criminal justice. But to become certified as a specialist in child trauma response. I wanted to do for other families what Clara, Dr. Marquez, and Michaels had done for us. I wanted to be the person who shows up when a child’s world has fallen apart and tells them: it’s not your fault. You are safe now. I will help you.
Lily turned seven.
We had a birthday party. Big one. All her friends from school and dance class. Balloons. Cake. A clown. The whole nine yards. She wore a yellow dress with daisies on it—the exact dress she’d begged to wear the day I came home. She ran and laughed and opened presents until her arms were full.
At one point, she pulled me aside.
“Mommy?” she said, serious for a second.
“Yes, my love?”
“Remember when I thought you’d never come home?”
I knelt down so I was eye level with her. I brushed the hair from her face.
“I remember.”
“I was wrong,” she said, and smiled that brilliant, sunlit smile. “You always come.”
That night, after the party was over and the last guest had left, I sat on the porch swing watching fireflies blink in the backyard. The house was quiet for the first time all day. I thought about everything that had happened. The mission. The door opening. The heel on Lily’s hand. The trials. The verdicts.
I thought about how close I’d come to losing everything.
How if I’d come home just one day later—just one—things might have been different. How if I’d trusted the wrong person one more time, I might never have gotten my daughter back.
A hand on my shoulder.
Michaels.
He’d stayed late to help clean up. He’d been there a lot lately. Not as my boss. Not as my partner. Just… there. Bringing dinner. Fixing the leaky faucet. Teaching Lily to ride a bike without training wheels.
“Penny for them?” he asked, sitting beside me.
“Just thinking,” I said. “About how lucky we are.”
“Luck had nothing to do with it,” he said quietly. “You fought for her. Most people would have crumbled. You got angry. You got smart. You won.”
“I had help,” I said.
He was quiet for a moment. Then he reached over and took my hand. His was calloused, warm, familiar. I didn’t pull away.
“Evelyn,” he said. “I’ve been wanting to say something for a while. And if you don’t feel the same, we can pretend I never said it. But I can’t keep it in anymore.”
He turned to face me.
“I love you,” he said. “Not as my agent. Not as my friend. As… more. I have for a long time. Probably since Tijuana, when you took that knife to the ribs and still managed to drive us three hours to the hospital while I was bleeding out in the passenger seat. And watching you with Lily this past year… watching how strong you are, how much you love her… it just made it impossible to ignore.”
My throat tightened.
“Michaels—”
“I know you’ve been hurt,” he said quickly. “I know trust doesn’t come easy for you anymore. And I would never, ever push you. If you need another year, another five years, however long—I’ll wait. I’ll be right here. Fixing leaky faucets. Teaching her to ride bikes. Eating whatever terrible casserole you make for dinner. Whenever you’re ready, I’m ready. And if you’re never ready? That’s okay too. I’m still here.”
I looked at him.
Really looked at him.
At the scar across his eyebrow. At the way his eyes crinkled when he smiled. At the man who’d shown up in eleven minutes flat when I’d called from the bathroom. Who’d stood beside me through every hearing, every trial, every nightmare. Who loved my daughter like she was his own without ever trying to replace the father she’d lost.
Who had never, not once, given me any reason not to trust him.
I leaned my head on his shoulder.
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“I’m ready,” I whispered.
He didn’t say anything. He just put his arm around me, and we sat there together in the dark, watching the fireflies, while inside the house, our daughter slept safe and warm in her bed.
