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Chapter 13

The drive to San Quentin took five hours.

Elias drove. Julian rode shotgun. Two of Julian’s best men followed in an SUV behind us.

I sat in the back, staring out the window, watching California roll by. The cities. The suburbs. The endless farm fields of the Central Valley. The brown, dry hills of the north.

No one spoke much.

What was there to say?

I’d gone back and forth a hundred times in the week since the letter arrived. Should I go? Should I ignore it? Was Ryan just messing with me one last time? Playing mind games from behind bars?

But I kept coming back to the same thing.

My father.

If there was even the smallest chance that his death hadn’t been what we’d all thought… I had to know.

Elias had checked. Ryan really was dying. Stage four lung cancer. It had spread to his brain and his bones. The prison doctors had given him three to six months. He’d been moved to the prison’s hospice unit.

He really didn’t have anything left to gain by lying.

We arrived at the prison at one in the afternoon.

It loomed on the point of the bay, gray and massive, walls thick enough to stop a tank. The air smelled like salt and old concrete and despair.

We went through security. Three checkpoints. Metal detectors. Pat-downs. My purse was searched. My jewelry was taken. Everything.

They led us down a long, cold corridor to the hospice visiting room.

It was different from the regular visiting rooms. Quieter. Sadder. No plastic chairs bolted to the floor. No thick glass between you and the inmate. Just small tables with wooden chairs. Soft lighting. For people who were saying goodbye.

Ryan was already there.

He was in a wheelchair. An oxygen tank beside him. He’d lost at least fifty pounds. His skin was gray. His hair was almost all white now. He wore a faded blue prison uniform that hung off him.

He looked up when we walked in.

His eyes lit up when he saw me.

“Claire,” he whispered. His voice was rough. Cracked. “You came. I didn’t think you would.”

Elias pulled out a chair for me. Sat on my right. Julian stood by the door, his eyes never leaving Ryan. The two guards stood outside.

“I came,” I said. “You said you had something to tell me. About my father. Talk. I don’t have all day.”

Ryan nodded. He coughed. A wet, terrible sound. He wiped blood from his lips with a tissue.

“Your father didn’t die of a heart attack,” he said again. “He was murdered.”

The room went cold.

“By who?”

“By my father. Richard Mercer.”

I froze.

Richard Mercer. Ryan’s dad. The man who’d killed himself three years ago. The man whose suicide note had started the whole Mercer downfall.

“That’s impossible,” Elias said. “Richard was in New York the weekend Arthur died. The police checked. He had receipts. Witnesses.”

“He had an alibi,” Ryan said. “A fake one. Paid for. Richard was a lot of things… but he was never stupid. He flew to New York. Was seen at the opera. At a restaurant. At a meeting. Then he took a private jet back to LA that night. Under a fake name. No one knew. He was in your father’s study the next morning. The one with the brandy and the cigars. The two of them argued. Richard gave him something. Put it in his drink. A drug. Undetectable in a standard autopsy. It causes the exact same symptoms as a massive heart attack. Then Richard flew back to New York that night. Was seen at breakfast the next morning. Perfect alibi.”

“Why?” I whispered. “Why would he kill my father?”

Ryan looked down at his hands.

“Because your father found out. About the plan. About me. About how Richard had pushed me to marry you. About the debts. About everything. Arthur confronted Richard. Told him he was going to the police. Told him he was going to make sure Richard spent the rest of his life in prison. Told him he’d make sure I never got a dime of your money. Ever.”

He looked up. His eyes were wet.

“Richard couldn’t let that happen. If he went to prison… the Russians would have killed all of us anyway. He saw only one way out. Kill Arthur. Hope you’d be too grief-stricken to notice anything. Hope I could marry you quickly, gain control of the estate, pay off the debts, and no one would ever be the wiser.”

I felt sick.

All these years.

I’d thought my father’s death had been a tragedy. A terrible, random act of God.

It had been murder.

Calculated. Cold. Planned.

By the father of the man I’d married.

“Prove it,” Elias said. His voice was tight. Angry. “Anyone can make up a story like this.”

Ryan reached into his pocket. Pulled out an envelope. Old. Yellowed. He slid it across the table.

“Richard wrote this. The night before he killed himself. I found it in his safe after he died. I’ve kept it ever since. I was going to use it. To blackmail you. If everything else went wrong. If I ever needed leverage. I figured… if you knew your father was murdered… you’d do anything to get justice. Even pay me. Even let me go.”

He coughed again. More blood.

“But I’m dying. What do I need with leverage now? What do I need with anything? I’m going to burn in hell for what I did to you. For what my family did. The least I can do… is give you the truth. Before I go.”

I picked up the envelope. My hands were shaking.

I opened it.

Richard Mercer’s handwriting. I’d seen it enough times to recognize it.

The letter was dated the day before Richard had killed himself.

It was a confession.

Every detail.

How he’d planned the murder.

The name of the drug.

The name of the man who’d sold it to him—a retired doctor in Tijuana, now dead.

The name of the pilot who’d flown him secretly back and forth to LA—also dead.

How he’d gotten into the house—using a key Ryan had made for him, months earlier, when we’d first started dating.

Every sick, terrible detail.

And at the end:

I’m sorry, son. I’ve ruined everything. I ruined your life. I ruined Claire’s. I ruined this whole family. The only way out is for me to take the truth with me. Don’t ever tell anyone what I’ve done. Let Arthur Lawson rest in peace. Let Claire live her life. Let this all die with me.

Dad.

I dropped the letter on the table.

I couldn’t breathe.

All this time.

All these years.

My father had been murdered.

And I’d married the son of his killer.

Lived with him. Slept with him. Loved him.

For three years, I’d slept with the enemy. Under the same roof where my father had died.

“Why now?” I whispered. “Why tell me now? Why not take it to the grave with you?”

Ryan looked at me. Really looked at me. For the first time… I saw the boy he’d been before his father had destroyed him. Scared. Sad. Sorry.

“Because I’m dying, Claire. And I’ve spent every single day in here thinking about what I did. About what my father did. About you. About how I destroyed the best thing that ever happened to me. You didn’t deserve any of it. None of it. And your father… he was a good man. A better man than my father ever was. A better man than I’ll ever be. He deserves justice. Even if it’s too late for him to see it.”

He paused.

“And there’s something else. Something in the letter I didn’t tell you. Read the last page. The part I circled.”

I flipped to the last page.

A paragraph had been circled in red.

There’s one more thing, son. If anything goes wrong. If Claire ever finds out the truth. Tell her this: Arthur knew. The night before he died… he knew something was wrong. He changed his will. Added a codicil. If his death was ever proven to be foul play… the entire Lawson fortune goes to the person who proves it. Every last cent. One hundred and twenty million dollars. He didn’t want the money to go to the people who killed him. He wanted it to go to whoever avenged him.

I stared at the words.

One hundred and twenty million dollars.

To whoever proved my father was murdered.

It was like something out of a movie.

“Ryan… you could have turned this letter in three years ago. After the warehouse. After everything. You could have gotten the money. Paid off the Russians. Saved your family. You could have been free.”

Ryan shook his head. He smiled sadly.

“I thought about it. Every day. But then I thought… what would I do with the money? My mother and sister are in prison. Sarah left. The baby doesn’t know I exist. I’m a convicted felon. A wife-beater. A fraud. Money wouldn’t fix any of that. And besides… you deserve it more. You’ve done more good with half of it in three years than my family did with the crumbs they stole in a lifetime. Keep it. Use it. Build something. Honor your father the way he deserves.”

He reached across the table. His hand was thin. Frail.

He didn’t touch me. He just rested his hand on the table between us.

“I’m sorry, Claire. For all of it. For marrying you under false pretenses. For hitting you. For breaking your arm. For letting my family treat you like garbage. For every lie. Every hurt. I’m so, so sorry. I know that doesn’t mean anything. I know it doesn’t fix anything. But I needed you to hear it. Before I die.”

He started coughing again. Worse this time. A guard rushed in to help him.

“Visiting time is over,” the guard said.

Ryan looked at me one last time.

“Goodbye, Claire. Be happy. You deserve it. More than anyone.”

The guard wheeled him away.

I sat there. Staring at the letter. At the confession.

Elias put his hand on my shoulder.

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